It's Friday. It's starting to rain outside. It's been on and off all day. It's been a difficult week. Hell, it's been a difficult month. Xavier and I split at the end of March and I feel like I'm still processing the loss of a friendship. So many conflicting feelings of anger, grief, etc. But when it happens, it happens. Which has left me re-considering a lot about my life. Who am I? What do I want to do with my time on this Earth? What do I value? It feels like this is the big "reset" everyone talks about life throwing at you sometime in your 30th year. ("Saturn Return" for you astrology peeps out there.) I've tried to cope by going back to my old life. As we tend to do when we experience tectonic shifts like these. Obviously, the safety of what's worked for us in the past should work for us again in the future, right? But it's like going back to your ex after 5 years. The same things that didn't work for you back then, a...